Neph out of action again… and for a bit longer this time.

[Matt]

Now he just needs to get his ass down to Hamburg. Shenanigans heal all wounds.

[yannis]

This is Awesome Reuben..Gread stuff man.

[Weft 4 Dead]

Looking good Reuben. All the best to you and your lads.

[neph93]

A little update…

I’ve been absent from the forum after getting quite ill again late summer. This sparked a diagnostic investigstion as it was becoming obvious that my major depressive disorder was a symptomatic of an underlying, more serious disorder.

I’ve now been diagnosed as having emotionally unstable personality disorder (previously known as Borderline Personality Disorder). There are also indications of ADHD (innattentive type), but that is hard to diagnose if you already have BPD.

Long story short, I will have had BPD since adolescence so a late diagnosis (while better than no diagnosis), means a lot of crap to wade through.

But fuck it. Onwards and upwards. Having a serious personality disorder is a great excuse for bad behaviour, right?

[Giles]

@neph93 said in Neph out of action again… and for a bit longer this time.:

Having a serious personality disorder is a great excuse for bad behaviour, right?

I must have it too.....

Thanks for the update Reuben....

[Matt]

I’m borderline lots of things. Halfassery is my way.

Love you buddy. Miss you lots.

[SKT]

@neph93 The “knowing” is a huge positive I’m hoping. Miss you here and will be sending all the positive energy your way.

[ARNC]

@neph93 said in Neph out of action again… and for a bit longer this time.:

Onwards and upwards.

This is definitely the way - hope the ride’s less bumpy from here on!

[endo]

love you @neph93

[neph93]

@Matt your making an organ enlarged and causing it to throb innsistently.

@SKT interesting point. For me, yes. It explains a lot, and long term it will be good to accept that. At the same time it is pretty hard to swallow right now… a key feature of the diagnosis is emotional dysregulation, so finding out has me seriously emotionally dysregulated

By all accounts, «knowing» is not of that much help when it comes to recovering from or living with disorders, from a therapeutic perspective. Whatever ails one up top, its about learning triggers and avoiding them. I’m the same me I always have been, with or without a three initial diagnosis. Just have to learn how best to live without triggering anxiety, depression or disocciation.

@Giles 🥰

[sabergirl]

Thanks for update, Reuben. We miss you around here, and I love seeing you when you pop in for a visit. I hope that with this diagnosis you can continue to find new ways to cope and live healthy and ideally happy!! ️

[markus_berlin_]

Hey..

I wish you all the best. I hope that you are soon back on the legs, as far as one can be with a depression.
I had only a light one, but that was enough.
I wish you much strength for the coming time!!!!

[Oaktavia]

@neph93 thanks for the update, brother dude. I can't imagine how the diagnosis feels with BPD but I certainly can relate to ADHD. I was diagnosed when I was 10 or so. Hope you continue to figure things out to the point where (selfishly) you can make more stops by the forum. We really miss you man but know it is from love and we are patient!

[popvulture]

Matt tends to inspire throbbing in organs, it's true. Just look at him.

Been wondering how you're doing, @neph93 — glad to hear you've got a diagnosis, as knowledge is power. We're all rooting for you and are happier whenever you're around. Much love, buddy ️

[goosehd]

New you, old you, same you...doesn't matter as we all love you! Ups, downs, and the in-betweens we'll be here

[WhiskeySandwich]

@neph93 Hey man, good vibes coming atcha. Its funny, I don't think we've ever chatted on here, but I've seen so much of you while scouring these forums for intel, that I feel like I've learned a bit about you (without creepystalking), and I think you're an alright guy. I want you to know that I'm genuinely rooting for you, and even as a stranger, you've been a great help and a positive influence to me. Be easy, my friend.

[Karol]

@neph93 Only opportunities Reuben. Stay strong!

[flannel slut]

@neph93 your transparency is truly admirable. Extended absences or not, you will always be the daddy of this forum. #man crush

[Aetas]

Thanks for stopping by @neph93
Sende eine fette Umarmung!

[J-IV]

Howdy @neph93 appreciate you keeping us in the loop as the forum truly isn't the same without. Its been a bit too cupcakey as of late
Sending you all the sunshine from the Cali coast. Keep on keepin' on my dude